I have been blinded by the anger i felt towards him.. I really hate how I felt that day. I don't want to hear his lame excuses anymore. I don't want to see his face in front of me. I don't wanna hear his voice. I don't even want to remember the day i first met him. I want him out of my life. I want him out of my dreams. I hate him so much... This is what my brain keeps telling me. To escape from the unbearable sorrows. But why can't i even dare to turn my back on him. The more i try to stop myself from loving him, the more it drives me crazy. Is this healthy? of course not.

I decided to end up everything. I chose my pride. I admit, I'm so selfish. I'm just trying to satisfy myself that i don't need him in order to exist. But I end up waking up one day that I'm totally wrong. The love i felt for him never faded. After all this time, I never stopped loving him. I just stop letting it show.

It hurts waking up every morning missing the person you value most in your life. This is the result of my my insecurities. My immaturity. These mistakes taught me how to value not just the persons close to my heart but to my own self as well.

I'll better fix these broken pieces of my heart as soon as possible because I don't want to wake up one day with nothing left in me.